Whether it is common or not among many people but He thinks he is one of the most contradicting person ever among his peers and family. Some sort off hypocritical at the same time. He could be there with a smile in front of his friends, giving out a vibrant sense of positivity and bliss from his smile and laughter. He could be there at times to give the best advice to his friends, some say that the words of wisdom are really mature one from someone who is mature enough to thought about it and speak it out. He can be there for anyone who is down and try his best to help them. He can help others but he could not help himself. He cannot put up the optimistic words he comfort others with for himself, what he says contradicts his own dark feelings about the things going on around him.
Seeing how he does to make the one he cares to feel better after the down they are going through, he is glad to see them moving on with great achievements later on. But deep inside, he is denying a big part of him that is not known to anyone. He tells others not to smoke yet he is a smoker, he tells others about the importance of study yet he is not studying well, he tell others to show their love and gratefulness to their family yet he is the one who hides all his affection towards his family and staying as gloomy figure in his lair. He got too much in his mind to overcome but seems almost impossible to done for. He thought of how little time he was given to fulfill all the needs he want to achieve, as though he was given a deadline to it. A great bridge of trepidation overwhelm his thoughts of despair, something can come at him anytime without him noticing and that shall be the last of him. We do not know how things can be very unpredictable and unexpected. It just comes with a swoosh and you are taken off to "wonderland".
No matter how much he thinks optimistically of what he should and should not do, it is still hard for him to put to his actions. Actions speaks louder than words, thats for sure and he realize everything he thought and said out before in his lifetime. He realize the fault and the consequences over a matter he does. Yet there he is stranded on that pathetic island of Sauron with the one ring-to-rule-them-all in his hand and do not have the capability to do it. Is he just a coward who stood silently behind the trees in the woods, or just someone who is not gallant enough to take on hard situations eventhough he knows what should be done? His mind sways away, leaving his body standing callously, oblivious to the what is around him. Before he knew it, his world is lit by darkness and darken by light...
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