Humans, Soulless, Mindless, Pathetic...\m/...

It is just mind pissing heart wrenching to see how people can behave like they own the world, what is it there to proof? That you are stronger than every one else, that you are better thany any one. Or you must have a really bad childhood to grow up in order to proof yourself this way. If you want to be barbaric, times have change and it is constantly changing, so please be a barbarian with brains.

A friend of mine got roughen up by an indian driver on the road, a big Indian guy who shouted profanities and threaten to beat him to pulps over a small issue of cutting each others lane on the road. He kept asking "Do you know who am I" etc etc intimidatingly stating indirectly that he is some scary dude with that no one dare messess with. He tail gates my friends and give chase and block the road in front of them, and whats more interesting is that he has a family of his wife and a couple of kids in the car as well.

Another friend of mine who did just bump a little into a malay vehicle, motorbikes or cars, and there goes nothing, those malays start calling a whole bunch of people from wherever they come from as though they are already on called and prepared for this. And they have their girl friends around who even supported them through their monkey baboon acts as well. And you know what happen next, they just do not want to talk, they seem to enjoy coming around you and give you one hell of day and night...

Recently, this that involves both sides of outsider in a chinese populated area during a night market and traffics are moving really slow. This particular car graze a car and the owner of the car came out and start beating on the car's windscreen and door on the driver side who graze his car. He hit continuously so loud and shouted in cantonese to get down the car. He started to intimidate the driver and his friend on the passenger sit. They stopped to have a so-called negotiation and the so-called-seem-to-be-a-gangster guy came shouting and pushing the head of the guy who graze his car and the guy did not retaliate a bit. He starts calling on the phone and speaking in a gangsta-cantonese style about people grazing his car. What is noticeable is the 2 girls who came down with the 'gangsta' from the car, 2 skimpy clothing girls as you all know those typical looking chinese girls who wears fucking tight short shorts with see through tight looking t-shirt that calls for guys to 'look at me, im hot and fuckable' who calls for a fuck and look like those who just fucks around with any chinese guys who just wants to fucks them. One of the factors could be concluded that this 'gangsta' is just trying to show off his 'greatness' to the girls that he is powerful and strong. Girls are just proud of that. He goes on threatening and raising his voice and hording over the other guy who tries to talk well with him.

What is common in all is that it is just mere luck they are able to show such hostility because those they get involve with people who are weaker than them, or you could say those who have greater minds and character than them. One wouldn't know if one day they did that to someone who is their equal or even superior than them and that they will taste their own medicine.

How you treat others, how you roughen up those who fell weaker to you, and how you felt so superior is just mere luck of your own. You would not care less to put yourself in that situation to know how it feels to be humiliated and being pushed down to your knees, how would you feel if your kids grows up to be push around that way. How would you feel if that victim is your family or your father.

No matter what, chinese, malay, indians here (only based on 3 major race), they have that same type of people in it, they are all just the same, mindless, brainless imbeciles, high level of ignorance, and just enjoys pushing people down to their knees and showing prowess and being so-called gangster to those around them. What gang or groups or whatever shit, are just a group of cowards who can't stand on their own with inferior discourse. You might be surprise how different are they when they are alone or unbelonging to anything and those who belongs to a certain group or not alone at all. You are all just pathetic, people do not retaliate against you does not mean they are weaker than you. It does not mean you rule them all. You shall see your fallen days soon enough. You are just proving yourself as a low life with how you are now. Who gets offended, it is your problem to deal with it, look at your own reflections first.

When majority is going for a change of government, the fact is that, the government does not need to change, what is needed is the reformation of the people themselves. The people that needs to be changed. The heart, the mind, the soul of the people needs to seek its own reformation for the better. No matter what side wins, when the people, the humans is still the same, nothing is different...\m/...

Archive: 17th January 2013 \m/

Don't Speak A Word Of The Holiness \m/

Don't talk about god when you yourself can't practice what he preach, don't talk about your religion when you are the very thing your religion despise, don't talk about holyness when you are impure to your soul's core, don't talk about goodness when you yourself is fucked to the depth of your heart, perform your act of sin and ask for forgiveness and repentance the very next day, how easy is it to be good...\m/...

Archive: 16th November 2012 \m/

Greatness Breeds Greatness \m/

One day, we are going to (or might) have children, we are going to be our parents. Look at all the people around you, do you want your children to grow up and be like them? Look at yourself, do you want your children to be like you? There are in many ways out of the blue we think of how we want our children to be and you ended up to look in the way how your parents look at you. When all we do is trying to be ourselves, but what do we see when our children tends to be like us, look in the perspective of your parents, and look in how you hope your children to be. Parents tend to expect their children to be someone great and do something more than they were and to have them going higher than where they stand, and those parents include future parents like us. Many might have the thought of becoming different from their parents, our parents might have the same thought when they were younger, but in the end, it is more or less the similar way of how their parents expect of their children. It is all for the best of their children.......\m/...........

Archive: 31st August 2013 \m/

The True Metal, The Only Ideal \m/

We are Metal, but we are not the Devil.

We are not cool, we just come to kill.

We are not neat, but we are ugly.

We are the counter of the culture.

We are black, but we are not sad.

We live by Metal, the ideal we cradle.

For we are pure, is the world's cure.

Our hearts of steel is made of gold, which is all virtuous and mighty bold.

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The Quest, The Ideal, The One \m/

The everlasting spritual and scientific search of alchemy, to convert elements into gold, pave the way for the ultimate strive to immortality. Such as it is to the split of Heavy Metal from music, to not be bonded with music, but to seek itself liberty and stand on its own. The strive to purity and perfection, that Heavy Metal is not music, nor it is sound, but the ideals of all pure being, the one and only ideal to be the singularity of all creation. Heavy Metal is the quest, through blood, sweat and struggle. Immortality \m/

Silence \m/

Forget or not to forget, people change but memories don't. Terrorazor wonders through the words of subtlety, but none could he make out of it. Things change, he is struggling through his work while laughters strive through his misery, who is Razor but himself of rationality, logic, senses and feelings he have. Farewell or not farewell? Terrorazor is dead. \m/

Nature Speaks Unkind \m/

Nature hates him, she despises him.

It is the fact that got him pondering.

The world is nice but cruel.

The latter is what he receives.

What is real to him, no eyes can see.

Thus he live, is he not?

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INFINITERROR - Memoir...\m/

Thus, it was said, no boundaries but Infinite of all Infinities he strive to live his lucid dream into reality where all can experience and learn from his creation.

INFINITERROR is perfected with the presence of Barry Boey. A new inspiration to drive a revolution towards a new world, through fire and dust, to crumbling walls and falling tears, he shall strive. It is not just a band of his, but all that he has, is more than just it meets the eye of human beings, a higher reason, a greater great and an everlasting wisdom.

Terror has a new name...\m/

INFINITERROR - Saviour Within

INFINITERROR, a three-piece music band with a serious musical edge and ambition to create a legend from their sound, words, ideals and beliefs.

Focusing in the veins of Heavy Metal, mainly towards the intonation of Thrash Metal, it has been a long five years of difficulty and challenges to endure ever since the band's formation. But, Terrorazor (guitar and vocals) had never been so driven to such extend of motivation towards the progress of Infiniterror. With all the setbacks and an unmoving progress in the past, puts the band to simply his hobby to satisfy his musical side. With a constant incomplete lineup over the years with unmotivated, uninterested and undedicated member, just crushes the spirit out of him to see a future with Infiniterror.

Such was then, until a savior of his confidence and faith arrive at the moment of his darkest hour, that Terrorazor had a reason to move on with his lifetime mission he chooses to fulfill even if it meant his material downfall. Yes, to push Infiniterror towards six-feet-under of relentless success to enlighten and to move the heart of the universe, pure credit must be given to Barry Boey (guitar and bass), the new member of Infiniterror who fills the gap and finds the missing part of the band. The perfect member and the perfect match to the band, to compose, practice and perform alongside him was the best of Infiniterror's timeline, period, for Barry nailed his first major gig at KL Thrashed 2014 with confidence and energy. He boosted and reboost Infiniterror with a brand new vibe never once Terrorazor has felt...\m/

The End, The Beginning \m/

There are no justice,
It all boils down to Razor's own fist,
And all Hell breaks loose,
For all battle for their survival,
The good of him has fallen,
The evil around him arises,
Humans blinded by their emotions,
The ego puts one to submission,
The enjoyment is the temptation,
The freedom is all a distortion,
Delusion and illusion,
The reality is just a perception,
You put Razor to his demise,
Strip him disgrace him to shame,
His demon is his eminence,
The final call is his answer,
Turn his love to violence,
For his love was deceived,
By your every kind words,
Meant nothing more than empty words,
The pinnacle is here,
In the next sunrise,
Over the edge of noon,
Every remnants of his demon,
Forms the true rage of his destiny,
To satisfy his violence lust,
To end his suffering or,
Create a new world order,
Justice shall be served by a lesson in violence,
By the dead or the living.

To my blood brethren, I wish for you to be my Parents and brother again in time to come. Thank you for giving me this life. \m/

The haunting of She \m/

It haunts all of his senses, each time, asleep or awake, there is no escape. To where he move, is to where stood, gazing at vivid images replaying in front of his eyes again and again. She is not something to be called to shrug off his mind, the importance of her existence, sets a meaningful presence to all of himself. It touches his life with all his six senses to be unite in his one core, deep down in his heart, creates a mark and so does a scar. All has turned into his haunting memoir, illusions and delusions, his happiness into dreams, his misery into reality. Sleep no more, awake is futile, the middle is in battle, in void he withdraws. Nowhere to turn to, no refuge to be taken, for his true life is gone, nothing can be done, for all he got is lost within the one. \m/

Judging the judgeless \m/

People always misjudge one to judge on the first impression but the fact is what causes the first impression comes from the action preceding your first impression. It is your actions that you do not realize that makes you being judged at first sight. Your actions comes from your ego that you plant it on your outer physiques that make the first impression of yourself. I am judging you not on the first impression but the cause of your outer first impression. Why do you that is my question? It is my statement preceding to your first impression. Everything boils down to the ego, the selfish need of attention and all things of the self. Naive it is for those who tell others not to judge others when all is judging one another while all is having their egos. Those who defend themselves from being judged and those who judge are purely made of their ego. You want to prove that first impression, first judgment and judging by not knowing, has already made you being judged as a being of full pride and selfish ego. Your defensiveness has shown your pride but you are just the same of ego. It creates worse impression with your statement of justification.

So many things, humans are doing uncobsciously without their thinking mind. Even those who think, are mighty ignorant.

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Love \m/

Love is both side of extremity. One can be way more than a best friend and one can be way worse than an enemy. One can treat you more than a king and one can put you in the lowest lifeform of humanity. Love revive and love destroys. Love is madness and love is serenity. Both side of the extreme exist in one love. Love, can never ever be trusted. \m/

Discomfort \m/

Time flies, days past him by like the everflowing wind, sounding the chime in his head to remind him of every second that has past out of his existence. The second month is approaching, nothing seems to get any better, just the risk getting higher. The restlessness is neverending, never forgiving, self-inflicting perseverance on his own. Yet, nothing is still, nothing is calm, he just wants more, to be out of his head. It is murderous, yet it could not kill, but forever tormenting. The cure is just an illusion, there is no salvation. \m/

A guiding hand to a killer's hand \m/

In helping one, it creates attachment. He wants to help, and he must help until one is change for the best. But one do not heed his guidance, but he do not give up in providing any guidance in any way. "Never give up" is the hindrance of his own well being and more problems shall arise from there.

When help is given, he should know when to stop before his helping hands turn into a murderous hand. To all, to help is to only guide those who seeks your guidance, never find those you think is in need for you shall find hostility in your way. Never attach oneself to help for its part of an attachment to the self.

If one cannot help another, one must let them be and walk away. Their mind is so shrouded and deluded, that no matter how much you do to help, to make them realize their mistakes, they shall only find hostility in you. For they want to do in accord to their feelings, to take refuge in their comfort zone, and to feed their ego with their own rationality. Time shall tell, or maybe their next life shall decide how they become, the cost of not willing to learn, understand and practice is all in their own mind/heart to decide...\m/

Lifeless \m/

Everything that is stated was tested. The test had proven all to be true, not mere theory but the profound truth of the universe. All that he read is all that he is facing, it seems that it is speaking directly to him than to the general lay humans. That is the power of the supreme truth of truth. The truth is there but not able to be seen, it can wake the universe or only through the mind of the awaken thus it shines and all heaven and hell is left behind for only those who are still in their deep slumber of never-awakening. He begins his journey...\m/

Only the pure is real \m/

He was told that he spoke like a monk, a sign of becoming one holy man. He use to think that monks are ridiculous, similar like how others think of monks. It was a view in most that sees monks as a being who waste their life by abandoning all the so-called pleasures, enjoyment and essence of life in the world. Monks are superficial beings who only speaks of holiness in the most serious manner as they could. Monks are clowns in most people inner perspective, humans look at them with disgust and jest in their minds, but yet again, humans never look within themselve of how, what and who they are to make laughter out of the noblest act in life.

IF A MONK/NUN WERE TO GIVE YOU WORDS OF ADVICE, IS IT NOT RIGHT TO LISTEN TO THEM ATTENTIVELY AND LEARN FROM THEM THAN LAY PEOPLE SIMILAR YOU?

IS IT NOT IN THE RIGHT MIND TO LISTEN TO AND PRACTICE FROM THOSE SELF-LESS HOLY MIND THAN THOSE CORRUPTED SHROUDED MIND AND SPEECH OF SOCIETY YOU ARE COMFORTABLE WITH?

IS IT NOT RIGHT TO LEARN FROM MONK/NUN WHO HAS A HIGHER LEVEL AND PROFOUND UNDERSTANDING OF LIFE?

Monk/nuns are beings who highly exceeded layman abilities physically and mentally. Monks/nuns are individuals who have seen the through the universal truth and has made entry into the stream to change for the best to guide all lay humans to liberation. Monks/nuns are beings who are noble and virtuous for they are able to abandon their lay people life that is filled with neverending desires and attachments. Monks/nuns must be respected for their actions and their achievement to see the only truth of living. Monks/nuns are venerable beings for their patience, their insights and their pure mind that is ready to achieve Nibbana. Monks/nuns are pursuing the path of purity and true cessation from all worldly things, which makes their words from their thoughts alot wiser than lay humans out there in the world. The words of monks are words of kind intentions, without ego, and full of patience and understanding to guide humans to the right path.

So is there anything wrong for those who speak like a monk, for they might have took the hard initiative to learn the truth deeply from wise monks and ancient beings? Aren't the ways of the monks are far more noble than those around you? For monks are rid of all desires, obtaining a pure mind, right view, right character and mindfulness, they speak, without ego, and speak only of the truth to guide all to be awaken. It has nothing to do with being a disciplinarian, but only a kind helping figure to show the right way and walk away if one does not agree with them. The path of the holy beings are completely different to any lay humans. Never make jest out of monks/nuns, never look down at them, never laugh at them, never insult them, for you humans are in no place to comment anything about them with your weak sleeping undeveloped self. Shame on you humans.

In regards to above, he only speaks of true monks. Fraud and evil monks are not included in the text above. \m/

Shedding to Cessation \m/

Terrorazor, Terrorazor, what happens to your might, Terrorazor? On the fateful day of July the 13th, your shadow is gone without a trace, you fade into your abyss, never to return since. I hear you Terrorazor, in my dreams you came to me, whispering your words of ever despair;

"My dear boy, my vessel, my sword, my protection, here I am to say my words you never knew. What you have asked of me, you are left in the dark, I abandoned you for I no longer am of need to you nor am I ever the greatness you hail of. On the 13th of July, I have fallen to my disgrace. From that day onwards, I am put to shame at every second, to face my sorrow from my four walls in my chamber and out to the world all I see is my regret and shame. I have lost my heart and my soul, my mind wanders and screams in silence, my tears flow blood out of my sockets, to wish for death I cannot for I am tormented in an eternal deathless realm. Eternal pain and sorrow, sadness burns me, fiery rage and fury takes over me. Living is worse than hell itself 10 times fold. Thus, I leave you, my boy, for I have failed to live on where you stand. I am deluded of the existence of my soul that I never had, I have seen the truth of horror, I am fading into my neverending abyss. My boy, now I leave the door open for you, to step into a new light, the golden light of purity and virtue, chivalry and morality, nobility and honesty, the only truth that ever exist, only you can find. Liberate yourself, learn well and teach the universe of what you gained, save all realms of ignorance and reap it off its suffering. Farewell now my boy, in time I hope I shall never see you again, may our path never cross once more. You must learn to live, learn to teach, learn to liberate... You must learn to love her..."

I open my eyes. Terrorazor was nowhere to be seen or heard, no matter how loud I called for Terrorazor but no sign of answers to be known of. Terrorazor is gone and the sun shines its ray through a new day...\m/

Blessed are the Grateful \m/

You have a beautiful face, you are gifted with charm and attraction. You are born in a worldly perfect manner with workable limbs and senses. A family who cares, Parents who raise you up and taught you well, siblings to be there for your wellbeing. Yet, you seek for more, more neverending perfection to your impermanent existence. Have you not be bless with a shelter to live under, food and water to keep you alive, clothes to cover you from shame, cold, heat, external consequences, tools to help you in your daily chores and work which all contributes to your comfort and convenience? You have access to wisdom and knowledge in this world of ridiculously convenient technologies.

There are many out there who wants to take your place in life. You are born into this life with complete blessings to fulfill your livelihood, yet you crave for more. You are never grateful for your becoming of this world, the worldly perfect condition you are given. Good begets good, whereas bad begets bad, that is the universal law. Have you ever thought why you have all this blessings? You are the blessings of a good path you thread in your past life, your past effort and hardship comes with the prize of what you are today. Do not waste your merits that you work for so hard, do not waste the merits of your Parents to give life to a great being like you. Stop your trivial pettiless craving, it may seem no harm today, but bit by bit it becomes a mountain of suffering. Step out of this delusional realm and see through the right view.

One to be a human is never easy, moreover, human life is short. Yet, you are never grateful. Appreciate of what you are blessed with, the perfection of who you are, is priceless. Do good, do what is right, protect yourself and serve your Family well. Make this short life, a life of virtue and nobility, to die in honour without remorse, to end this life with a smile of the virtues you had done. Death is uncertain, you shall die a minute later, an hour, tonight, tomorrow or the day after or anytime. It shall be a hindrance for you to die incomplete, with regret of the virtue you never obtain. You use what you are blessed with for good and only good, to be grateful, to be modest, to be virtuous. You have everything to make it easier to succeed through the good path, make good use of it, because one day, you shall wish you are born like who and what you are today. \m/.

True love, is a Family love \m/.

Many may not agree but yet it could be the truth of true love. True love in how I personally define is the love of Family. The love between you and your Mother, you and your Father, you and your siblings. It is a very idealistic viewpoint in such a 'realistic' world humans are living in. In the world, where things are taken for granted, fades and comes and go. The reality as one would called it, to face the fact of life. But what is fact, who or what created the fact? If a fact could be created and live upon, so does my ideal could be practiced out of my own silent thoughts. You may find this disturbing or sick, but I shall say that in a couple relationship, true love is like the relationship between you and your Mother.

Pure love is a love that is bonded for eternity no matter what. A love so pure that you are willing to go through every single thing with your partner, to support your partner and to shine in each other weakness. Like a Mother and her child, love is always there no matter what happens. There are times when a Mother and her child who are never in good terms, always in conflict with each other, each cannot be patient with each others difference, a lack of understanding of one feelings and thoughts. It grows until the point, a Mother and her child do not communicate with each other nor seem to bother about what each other is doing. But, think, no matter how much you are angry with your mother, do you think of her wellbeing, do you come back home and see her, do you wish your mother "happy birthday", do you be there for her in times of difficulty and so on, yes you do, and so does your mother. You may not do all aforementioned above but in your heart, you care for your mother. That is true love, a love that shall never fade in any times of difficulty, one is Family and that Family is for eternity. Family do not leave Family in a glimpse and begin to treat one another like enemies, Family are tied with an unbreakable chain that no one can see but only your love for your Family. Family conflicts shall never last forever, and forget and forgiveness is always ready for one to give and take.

Same goes in a relationship, true love is there when you treat one another like how you treat your Family, when you look at each other like how you look at your Family. The tantrum you throw, the annoyance each other made, it is all the same with your Family, the conflicts, arguments and difficulties, that is true love, the love of a Family. When one begins to see each other like their own Parents, then one must realize the reason behind it all. It is not because one acted like your Parents, but what you perceive had become a Family viewpoint and that is when a new Family is formed between the pairing of two.

If one cannot love their Family well, then one is not ready for a relationship. If one cannot love one like how one love their own Family, then one is not ready for a relationship. Everything starts from home, the home is the pinnacle guidance to everything. Family is for eternity, the only unbreakable bond, true love. She is my Family \m/.