A change for difference to a change for nothing...\m/...

It is just mind pissing heart wrenching to see how people can behave like they own the world, what is it there to proof? That you are stronger than every one else, that you are better thany any one. Or you must have a really bad childhood to grow up in order to proof yourself this way. If you want to be barbaric, times have change and it is constantly changing, so please be a barbarian with brains.

A friend of mine got roughen up by an indian driver on the road, a big Indian guy who shouted profanities and threaten to beat him to pulps over a small issue of cutting each others lane on the road. He kept asking "Do you know who am I" etc etc intimidatingly stating indirectly that he is some scary dude with that no one dare messess with. He tail gates my friends and give chase and block the road in front of them, and whats more interesting is that he has a family of his wife and a couple of kids in the car as well.

Another friend of mine who did just bump a little into a malay vehicle, motorbikes or cars, and there goes nothing, those malays start calling a whole bunch of people from wherever they come from as though they are already on called and prepared for this. And they have their girl friends around who even supported them through their monkey baboon acts as well. And you know what happen next, they just do not want to talk, they seem to enjoy coming around you and give you one hell of day and night...

Recently, this that involves both sides of outsider in a chinese populated area during a night market and traffics are moving really slow. This particular car graze a car and the owner of the car came out and start beating on the car's windscreen and door on the driver side who graze his car. He hit continuously so loud and shouted in cantonese to get down the car. He started to intimidate the driver and his friend on the passenger sit. They stopped to have a so-called negotiation and the so-called-seem-to-be-a-gangster guy came shouting and pushing the head of the guy who graze his car and the guy did not retaliate a bit. He starts calling on the phone and speaking in a gangsta-cantonese style about people grazing his car. What is noticeable is the 2 girls who came down with the 'gangsta' from the car, 2 skimpy clothing girls as you all know those typical looking chinese girls who wears fucking tight short shorts with see through tight looking t-shirt that calls for guys to 'look at me, im hot and fuckable' who calls for a fuck and look like those who just fucks around with any chinese guys who just wants to fucks them. One of the factors could be concluded that this 'gangsta' is just trying to show off his 'greatness' to the girls that he is powerful and strong. Girls are just proud of that. He goes on threatening and raising his voice and hording over the other guy who tries to talk well with him.

What is common in all is that it is just mere luck they are able to show such hostility because those they get involve with people who are weaker than them, or you could say those who have greater minds and character than them. One wouldn't know if one day they did that to someone who is their equal or even superior than them and that they will taste their own medicine. 

How you treat others, how you roughen up those who fell weaker to you, and how you felt so superior is just mere luck of your own. You would not care less to put yourself in that situation to know how it feels to be humiliated and being pushed down to your knees, how would you feel if your kids grows up to be push around that way. How would you feel if that victim is your family or your father. 

If you want to proof how powerful you are, come on, picking on those weaker than you does not pose a challenge, where's the fun in it. Since people are talking shits about the cops in the country, why don't you enter a police station and start picking a fight with those guys. It is hell alot more fun and challenging unless you are just afraid. You just like to create big fights out of petty issues with layman just to satisfy your own highly pathetic meaningless ego.

No matter what, chinese, malay, indians here (only based on 3 major race), they have that same type of people in it, they are all just the same, mindless, brainless imbeciles, high level of ignorance, and just enjoys pushing people down to their knees and showing prowess and being so-called gangster to those around them. What gang or groups or whatever shit, are just a group of cowards who can't stand on their own with inferior discourse. You might be surprise how different are they when they are alone or unbelonging to anything and those who belongs to a certain group or not alone at all. You are all just pathetic, people do not retaliate against you does not mean they are weaker than you. It does not mean you rule them all. You shall see your fallen days soon enough. You are just proving yourself as a low life with how you are now. Who gets offended, it is your problem to deal with it, look at your own reflections first.

Humans just take pleasure in inciting conflicts just to satisfy their subconscious insatiable desire for violence. Violence without a purpose.

When majority is going for a change of government, the fact is that, the government does not need to change, what is needed is the reformation of the people themselves. The people that needs to be changed. The heart, the mind, the soul of the people needs to seek its own reformation for the better. No matter what side wins, when the people, the humans is still the same, nothing is different...\m/...

Ignorant Wisdom...\m/...

      Children without the basis of education, the purest human form in all stages of life, with a clear conscience, a pure mind, that is never distracted by anything in the realities of the material world. The innocence of a child without any intention but just to be happy for themselves. Seems to be the most destructive power it could be used upon mankind. The lack of basic knowledge and education, the point where they listen to everything you said and learn from your actions, are the quickest to learn without a question in mind. Ironically evil acts can be done by this innocence of the soul, the use of an ignorant mind and an innocent heart as a tool to achieve one man's ambition can be one of the most highly effective weapon of mass destruction. Like the conscious of a man being trained for many years and hard enough to achieve a heart of stone, a child can be done with much ease than anything. The fear of a ghost child, as it is said to be one of the most malignant spirit in this world. Their needs of fun and play to them it is just mere child's play that devastates the life of a human being disturbed by the spirit. The child possess the mind of a human child and the purity of the heart, but having a higher form of power that mankind could not deal with. Such the same as child vampires, as one could see from the most common reference from the Twilight saga where child vampires are abominations and must be destroy due to the great hamr they poses, they do not know what they are doing and only succumb to their feelings of need, without knowing what is wrong and right thus killing many to satisfy their thirst. Child warriors or soldiers, humans are smart to smuggle children around the world who does not know what is right or wrong but only knows to play, are easily influence by these men who transform them into vicious beast. Assuming real guns as toys and killing enemies a part of their childhood games, they kill without a sense of conscious of what is right and wrong, and do what they are told and what they think is just a mere game to be played. Death to them is nothing but losing a game and walks away without a sense of remorse. Ignorance became a weapon, to create a better weapon. Looking into the eyes of a child seeing how pure they are from their looks, but those ironically and unconsciously to the outside eyes that it could kill and destroy as they like without knowing what they are doing. Ignorance, is the key factor, the way to control is to implant ignorance into humans or to make use of their ignorance that they already possessed. 

      In the end, wisdom and knowledge becomes the key saviour to these beings. Most think that with education to gain knowledge and taking steps to wisdom creates a so-called civilized society and a world of peace. With higher authority in one self, they question and doubt things around them, not to be easily deceive by what they see through their eyes. However, with great wisdom with an ambitious heart, with a heart that goes all out to achieve their aims, could create another force of destruction around them, a destruction and devastation with a mind and conscious. The conscious they chose to be despicable, of what they interpret to be for the greater good, they form their own definition of greatness and good that puts all others in suffering. Such dictators like Hitler, Mao Zedong, Ivan The Terrible, Alexander The Great and many more are people with great minds of knowledge and wisdom. That they use it for their own ambitions and cause. Creating their world they visualize through their mind, planning and designing pandemoniums along the path they strode closer to their aims. Inventing their own beliefs and successfully injecting them into the minds of others. They are focus to their dreams, and they manage in one way or another to live up to their success for a moment. How they impacted the world with their minds and actions, comes from their brain and heart with the similar size with all of mankind. But a greater possession of what they know, and their wisdom that change their view and the people they affected. Being ignorance and being well equipped with knowledge and wisdom, can both be destructive. One might conclude it is all about the human ego. It will be one word to says it all. But what can be said is how the heart and feelings react to what you have, being ignorance and full of wisdom at the same time having a heart is two things very far apart from one another. With wisdom, one can use to it to reinvent the world, in a better way or the other, being knowledgeable does not mean you are being great, but how greatness you can achieve from that. Applying those tools of wisdom into your trunk of disposal to the outside world of your cosmic mind, putting an end to an era and begin another era of your own. It is more than possible to be done.......\m/.......

Through Ashes And Dust, A Penitence Of Time Part 2...\m/...

       10, 20, 30, 40, 50, 60, 666 times and so on we tink to ourselves how much we will change. A better tomorrow, a better future, an improvement of yourself, that is how you could feel without much of a burden around your shoulder, and when things go so well your emotions make it feel like those bitter past have gone and you improve to your better bidding. Just because you are not in it anymore, does not mean you are an improvement to yourself. An imrpovement to yourself is going through the same shit or a greater shit than before and seeing how you perform and cope with it during the current moment that tells of how capable of you are today and right now in this very moment. There are past so bitter, that no matter how much sweets or sour plums you take in will not kill the bitterness that resides in your taste bud. When the past is so bitter, it forms a set of thoughts and beliefs within your mind and heart, that culminates into your feelings and thus make of yourself today, a product of your past, a lesson you may learnt too much of it, that you are being hyper sensitive to not have things being repeated or having the taste of the bitterness you once had before.
      It is not like you wanted it to happen, but the fact is within your very own self, how you are today is what you experienced and learnt from the past, it is matter of fact whether you learn it in a good way or a bad way, whichever you define it is good or bad for yourself. It is not surprising how an innocent and good being can be polluted by dirt and darkness and forms himself the villain he is today or should I say cold and darker self of him/herself today. How things can force a pure being to think and act out of bitterness from their past. Once he/she was not like how they are, it is surprising to learn that some villians have a great and pure past than they are today, but after things go awry and wrong for them, they got betrayed, hurt and pushed to the limits of themselves (humans have a limit to themselves, breaking the boudaries of it can cause great harm to oneself, like the saying goes, too much of something isn't good) and gets them out of their naive state. They see more and they hear more, being more cautious and losing trust among people. So to say naive can be good or bad in a way of how you place that term in a situation. People loses trust in others due to their past of betrayals and lies, especially by those they trust so much to be cheated in the end. People loses faith in people because of how they are treated and being mistreated in a way that they find other people are not reliable anymore. Until a day comes when they will realize not all things are like how they seem. But like I said this kind of situation makes one a little more sensitive than usual, with a situation that gives them back the same old feeling as before, that they could not trust or makes it difficult to trust. One that got thrust into the heart of darkness from the foul being of others, is something that makes it harder to endure as all live their life among the living and until the end you live among them and die among them..........

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Into Oblivion...

      What is common of the words of many that one must not keep gurdges, one must let go of vengeance from their heart. One must make peace and not war. One must learn to love than to hate. One must free their soul and mind from all hatred of all kinds and learn to make peace with any of them. No matter how much you make peace with your hatred, there is always a fragment left behind, malignant like a cancer cell that spreads and grow like tumor in the body. Vengeance is neverending, once you took your vengeance, another vengeance is created towards yourself, a cycle that keeps on repeating until one calls for a truce and repent for their own actions, and break the cycle of vengeance. It is foolish they said to keep grudges towards people, it only puts yourself in the shoes of defeat in the very first place while your enemy lives on happily and laugh in your face of disgrace. Vengeance does not heal, even you had your vengeance, what you once lost is lost and you never regain it back as how it is. Hatred as the core to those to vengeance similarly does not brings any satisfaction to you once you put those you hated in harms way, and strip them of their happiness. It adds to your sin and makes things worse around you, you created a dark patch within yourself that constantly grows until it takes you down into the deep abyss of your life. The hell you created by your own. Nothing is solve, things remain the same. Hatred goes back to you and you pay for what you did and you want another payback to them.
      So it is said that no matter what nothing will be solved, but in the very essence of the human souls, created of darkness that lies within. The very morbid reality that you live, a reality without the law, where things can go the way you wanted to, it is inevitable to your thoughts of carnage that it created. The thought of those you hate keeps you in anger and hatred, no matter how much you calm yourself and make peace within your mind, there will always be something relative that erupt the sleeping volcano in you. Unsatisfactory it is as long they are alive, how much you evade, their existence brings nuisance to you. What keep you happy and contented after hatred is the dispel of their existence from this very realm you live in. How can one agree to such deeds of the flesh, but put one in your thought of your own, on those people who done you wrong and those you hated, without their existence, how much better off you will be in this realm where such existence you hated does not exist anymore. In the mind, the thought of those you hate disappears from the mind, thinking how much better it would be if they are not around, killing in your thoughts, how you wish they could be killed off without leaving a trace, how you wish you have the guts to perform such despicable act to those. Or the act of righteousness of your own. One can only be truly satisfied by the killing of another person, dispel of their existence and your hatred once and for all. Nothing remains but their memory which will fade to black once they are gone. The smile on your face, the true smile that lies within your heart, ecstatic as you can be, a sense of overwhelming euphoria that puts in you in the biggest cloud 9 you can get, on that very moment once you see their blood in your hands, lying motionlessly in the ground where they lay to waste. The destroying of an existence, wiping it out from the face of the earth, grants one of the greatest happiness one could get, the relief of their hatred, a medicine to their pain, the satisfaction of their non-existent that will not be off any trouble anymore, it may seem morbid to think about it but to try to think about it, and one can feel the smile from the heart which they never will know (but hatred could be dispel back on you by the dead man friends and love ones, that explains why the puunishment of the annihilation of the bloodline and genocides and mass killing and massacre). Denying of the fact that comes with the effect of good and evil, what we were taught that is ought to be done by society and religion. "Thy shalt not kill" to place a seal on the action of humans, to create peace and harmony, to seal off human true primitive nature. One can still never escape the blissful thought of relieving hatred and vengeance by wiping off their existence and anything that got to do with it.

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Through Ashes And Dust, A Penitence Of Time...\m/...

      There are those people with a past that they can't hold behind, that puts them in the light of their present. There are those who can't forget but yet they forgive. The common lore of forgive and forget, but without both of them playing a role together, nothing of value is made from it. Most forgive but never forget, as certain period of their life, they resent of what happens before their very sight of life, some experience it deeply that entrance them into a waking dream or nightmare if you may put it that way. Thus there are those who forget but never forgive, sealing themselves away from a past that they do not want to remember because they can never forgive those or maybe themselves from any occurrences that befalls upon them. Such grave mistakes that takes them out into their present, they seal it off and act like it never happen, putting on a fake smile and staging an act of memory loss towards that particular fragment of time.
     But the truth is, if one could not get over any of those, neither to forgive and never forget or forget but never forgive, one is still holding on to both concepts of to forgive and to forget. When it happens, it is like an unseen scar that never leaves them, how it stained the purity of their soul and one could not take back what they have done and all could one do is to redeem themselves and learn from the things one goes through. To forgive, is a noble act so to say, forgiving those who have hurt you, those who have done great harm, those who took away your life, your soul, your essence, your dignity and pride and gives you living hell out of the dirt you stand, to withstand all this doings upon your very life does great victory to one and creates one noblest act to be done. To let go off all pain and suffering, you forgive them and you forgive yourself as you walk down the unforeseen path. If all could be done how easy the world shll be at, but no, almost near impossible to be done as to forgive is to suffer. As so stated in lyrics by late Chuck Schuldiner in the Death song he wrote 'To Forgive Is To Suffer' from the album The Sound Of Perseverance (1998):

"Throughout our time a thought,
Escapes us to enforce a word, no,
Holding on to pain it may seem to some,
The easy way to say ok, twist your,
Knife a little deeper,
Words so sharp actions darks,
Hide the blade of the deceiver,
Enforce the words no more, be free,
Alone you might just find serenity,
To accept another day we choose,
To give away another piece of life,
To forgive is to suffer,
 Once or twice is kind,
Three or four is blind,
It is not the end yet a way to begin,
The power of words both good and bad.'

A song with a thousand meaning by a perspective of billions, how one sees it is up to them to see. But it says it all in a general theme of forgiveness, to forgive is to suffer, to let go a piece of your life to your enemy, to the ones who have wronged you, that puts you in such dark days as you never knew. He comes forth with a solemn of despair, that it will never be the same again. Humans are full pride and egoism is their trade, to forgive is to let go of hatred and all those guilty pleasures of violence that consumes your very thought. It feels like defeat, you feel you have fallen on your knees to those scums. You feel you lost everything of your pride, your life is gone. It hurts so much to forgive that one choses not to forgive, keeping the grudge feels like a drug. Without forgiveness, no one can forget the pain.

      To forget but never forgive, the act he feels deem right to his honour as a person. But just a lie he made to himself, living in a reality created by his own, that everything is over, nothing left in his memories, all fragments are swallowed up in time, that never it will repeat again, but once it occured a sense of dejavu, the old feelings comes back to haunt him, splitting out a personality so dark, that he sees himself talking to his shadows, shadows  created from his past. He resent, he angered, he never forgive, but what is it that he never forgive is what he forgets, feelings of unforgiven dust shrouded his emotions and mind but nothing could he get a clearer picture off, but in time, in time shall it all be clear to him once again. And nothing remains of himself in the present. Welcome back to the reality you belong, or should be said ONCE belonged. When one never forgives, no matter how much one says one forgets everything, let it be forgotten, one just want things to be left behind and to escape from the darkness he resented and angered, one will never forget how he was wronged. Haunts from the past, takes over his present. Forget with all your heart contents, but never forgive once and nothing is truly forgotten.

      Without fulfilling all, nothing is fulfilled. Forgive and forget and act of letting go and accepting yourself as you are, and so be it your very best at your present times, learn and take note, do it with full care together with a straight mind and heart, one thus then fulfill a part of enlightenment in life. To forgive and forget is one of the highest and difficult victory one could achieve, an act so virtuous that it brings down the foe you once condemned so much to their knees. Forgive and forget, a noble act, and nobility comes with a price to pay on your subconscious ego. Understand and know where you stand...\m/...

Amidst...\m/...

There was the time where one do not think much of a concern over matters. There was the moment where one does not give a damn of what is going on. There was the moment when nothing was of your concern and everything goes with the flow as how you ride on with the wind. There was a moment when everything is just so pure and free that one could smile without a cause and a reason.

The moment that was once so less enduring, so little of what is to bother. Hearing the tick of the clock, seeing the dust in the illumination of a light. Everything in the consciousness of what is happening at that very moment. How the test of time have devour those capabilities. The reality that is to be known, to be labeled by many but to a few it was not. The path of growth, to the end of growth, one face the each moment and ever increasing to what is to be thought. Distractions, complications, feud, conflict, discontented etc etc etc, had it not create a wall to how one should truly live. This is the reality of what is spoken of by many, being bothered and to bother once again and again repetitively, never to be solved because of what we seek for ones survival until all became into the likes machines, many became the same as one another. Survival, to stay alive and to stay in comfort, happiness is gain when one is happy, but never happiness could occur to one when all around them are discontented. A plague of emotions, a plague of expectations seek by the society.

A wall is built by you, you are built by society. To create a reality in what you live in created by non other but those around you. Have one lost the sense of reality to a parallel reality? Embody the pressure of what is around you, by what you want but not you need, or what you think you need which is just your wants. To put yourself in a situation where there is no way out, to choose one for the other, to choose a matter over matter or to have all in your grasp. Have we lost the sense of freedom where we once felt a decade back or so? As one ride into the new world order of their age, will be the moment that define them as a person of what they ought to become. What they ought to choose to do. One tend to miss out the true essence of their own amidst the chaos that ensues...\m/...

Vague...\m/...

The deep hollow grave,
Once dug it was,
To the morning glory it once shown,
Down upon my throne,
In the wake of a gentle calm,
Ride on the saddle that I mount,
Traverse the land by foot,
The sea by ship,
And the sky by wings,
To ride forth to the fountain of dreams,
Where I see myself flow with the streams,
Down once again it fell through the rocks,
It is where I lay to rot,
For I fall deep into the hollow grave,
A never-ending fall from my grace,
Shadow in the mist of vague,
Where everything was in vain,
Fade to black my demise is met,
In the hands of emptiness,
I lie there motionless...\m/...

Nothing more, nothing less...\m/...

Making a rule, things that is supposed and not suppose to be done, an obligation to be done just to satisfy on how it is supposed to be. Never make a rule for that, we do not live by rule, never was there a rule in the first place, rules are made by humans, and humans like anyone of you out there, are creatures of the same bones, flesh, blood with different genetic cells and forms. There was never once a rule before someone made the the first move to form it into a constitution and a law that we must obey, if not, we shall be judge by the people who are made out of the same material as us, those beings, equal as we are, just difference by intelligence which could be formed in anyone is nothing more nor nothing less. Who are they judge us, who are they to tell us who shall live and who shall not, if they judge us, what judge them? Who are they to play supreme by having the ascendancy of judging the life and death of a convict? Who are you to punish, humans are not given the authority by anything powerful or divine, but by the law itself which is also man-made, by humans. What makes you different than a murderer? Just a mere mortal who is given the authority by another mortal does not give them the rights to judge anyone especially the life of others.

      There was never a rule, humans came into this world without the order of any being, but by the power of evolution, creatures, mammals, apes that evolve in 2-legged beings we are. Books are written by man, words are said by man, teachings are given by man. A rules set to be followed, a norm to adhere, is still not an obligation for humans. Humans live in a sphere of choices, which is their very rights from the very beginning of humanity. Nothing more, nothing less. They adhere to the norms or not is still a choice of their own, if they so-called break the rules, the problem is theirs, any consequence shall only be faced by them and not to us to judge and condemned. Take it by your own hands, kill them on your own, and killing is not a rule either…

There was never a rule,

Only ethics from the heart…\m/…