There are those people with a past that they can't hold behind, that puts them in the light of their present. There are those who can't forget but yet they forgive. The common lore of forgive and forget, but without both of them playing a role together, nothing of value is made from it. Most forgive but never forget, as certain period of their life, they resent of what happens before their very sight of life, some experience it deeply that entrance them into a waking dream or nightmare if you may put it that way. Thus there are those who forget but never forgive, sealing themselves away from a past that they do not want to remember because they can never forgive those or maybe themselves from any occurrences that befalls upon them. Such grave mistakes that takes them out into their present, they seal it off and act like it never happen, putting on a fake smile and staging an act of memory loss towards that particular fragment of time.
But the truth is, if one could not get over any of those, neither to forgive and never forget or forget but never forgive, one is still holding on to both concepts of to forgive and to forget. When it happens, it is like an unseen scar that never leaves them, how it stained the purity of their soul and one could not take back what they have done and all could one do is to redeem themselves and learn from the things one goes through. To forgive, is a noble act so to say, forgiving those who have hurt you, those who have done great harm, those who took away your life, your soul, your essence, your dignity and pride and gives you living hell out of the dirt you stand, to withstand all this doings upon your very life does great victory to one and creates one noblest act to be done. To let go off all pain and suffering, you forgive them and you forgive yourself as you walk down the unforeseen path. If all could be done how easy the world shll be at, but no, almost near impossible to be done as to forgive is to suffer. As so stated in lyrics by late Chuck Schuldiner in the Death song he wrote 'To Forgive Is To Suffer' from the album The Sound Of Perseverance (1998):
"Throughout our time a thought,
Escapes us to enforce a word, no,
Holding on to pain it may seem to some,
The easy way to say ok, twist your,
Knife a little deeper,
Words so sharp actions darks,
Hide the blade of the deceiver,
Enforce the words no more, be free,
Alone you might just find serenity,
To accept another day we choose,
To give away another piece of life,
To forgive is to suffer,
Once or twice is kind,
Three or four is blind,
It is not the end yet a way to begin,
The power of words both good and bad.'
A song with a thousand meaning by a perspective of billions, how one sees it is up to them to see. But it says it all in a general theme of forgiveness, to forgive is to suffer, to let go a piece of your life to your enemy, to the ones who have wronged you, that puts you in such dark days as you never knew. He comes forth with a solemn of despair, that it will never be the same again. Humans are full pride and egoism is their trade, to forgive is to let go of hatred and all those guilty pleasures of violence that consumes your very thought. It feels like defeat, you feel you have fallen on your knees to those scums. You feel you lost everything of your pride, your life is gone. It hurts so much to forgive that one choses not to forgive, keeping the grudge feels like a drug. Without forgiveness, no one can forget the pain.
To forget but never forgive, the act he feels deem right to his honour as a person. But just a lie he made to himself, living in a reality created by his own, that everything is over, nothing left in his memories, all fragments are swallowed up in time, that never it will repeat again, but once it occured a sense of dejavu, the old feelings comes back to haunt him, splitting out a personality so dark, that he sees himself talking to his shadows, shadows created from his past. He resent, he angered, he never forgive, but what is it that he never forgive is what he forgets, feelings of unforgiven dust shrouded his emotions and mind but nothing could he get a clearer picture off, but in time, in time shall it all be clear to him once again. And nothing remains of himself in the present. Welcome back to the reality you belong, or should be said ONCE belonged. When one never forgives, no matter how much one says one forgets everything, let it be forgotten, one just want things to be left behind and to escape from the darkness he resented and angered, one will never forget how he was wronged. Haunts from the past, takes over his present. Forget with all your heart contents, but never forgive once and nothing is truly forgotten.
Without fulfilling all, nothing is fulfilled. Forgive and forget and act of letting go and accepting yourself as you are, and so be it your very best at your present times, learn and take note, do it with full care together with a straight mind and heart, one thus then fulfill a part of enlightenment in life. To forgive and forget is one of the highest and difficult victory one could achieve, an act so virtuous that it brings down the foe you once condemned so much to their knees. Forgive and forget, a noble act, and nobility comes with a price to pay on your subconscious ego. Understand and know where you stand...\m/...
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