Only The Good Dies Young...\m/...

Only the good dies young. Only those who remain doing what is right for who and what is around them shall get the worst of the receiving end. It is too ideal to think doing good be rewarded with good while doing bad be given bad, too ideal for the world we live in now. Had the world turned upside down or it has always been this way right from the start?

An unjustly realm people lived in, especially for those who deserves better. To be given the pain and suffering by those who remains in their best state ever from the shit they do. An opposite turn of event it is, where is the fairness and justice for those who deserves. Those who fight hard will be killed harder, those who strive further will be shot down in their tracks, while those who destroys them gets the first laugh off all.

There are no room for goodness in this world. Don't look further ahead into the realms of Hell and Heaven or whatever paradise it is said to exist, there are no evidence for that to assure its very existence. Assume their non-existence, and what a waste have you put upon your life. Look at the ground level where one stand, the present moment of reality, the harsh reality right in front of their eyes. The pain you feel, the suffering you endure, have your actions brought you into this, have your actions ever so noble brings forth such torment in your life, while those who receive your grace strive on without ever looking back at you, not even a glance at your shadow. They keep coming back when you stand up again. They hurt you and claim to be right and put you in more agonizing pain to make you feel the worse of yourself, while they take control over your mind and emotions, where in a crushing fist, you will bow down to their every need.

This is the common reality humans live in, the good be given bad while the bad will be rewarded with showers of goodness.

The People's Struggle...\m/...

Socialism, as it seems to be, on a humble and down to earth view and analysis of things happening. They sought to see things happening within the people themselves and the people they live around with. The struggle for equality of human rights that is to say on a major scale I shall it to free education and healthcare.

To look at it in another angle, privatization of such vital points like education and healthcare does bring a lot of problems to most people who are in the working class or those who earn enough for a day. Take a look around you, your friends and acquaintance who are struggling to pay fees in the private sector to expect a better education as people have lose hope in the public universities with immense imbalance of the NEP quotas for non-Malays and Malay students. Parents are working hard to pay for your education, conflicts and misery occurs due to financial issues. See for your ownself and those around you who are struggling to finance their education, and those who take PTPTN (those who truly can't afford) to pay up their fees. Furthermore, with the fees of private education increasing by each semesters digging a larger holes in the pockets and increasing the struggle in a now marked-up price era.

Privatization of healthcare, like private hospitals and clinics. Those who are under torment of fatal diseases give pain to the heart of their love ones, and not able to afford for a good medical treatment brings another distress to their hearts. Yes, of cause many people have lose faith as well in government hospitals, there are those who have complains of being mistreated and not being treated well in government hospitals, that push them to the limits of relying on private hospitals. But, it comes to a point that there are many people who could not afford such heavy fees in private healthcares, there are those who sells and trade in what they got for as much cash as they could to fork out the fees they have to pay to save their love ones.

Both education and healthcare are great essential needs for humans, education for knowledge and healthcare to sustain a life. These needs are not meant to be privatized for the sake of profit, these are humans lives on stake. Everyone have the rights for education and healthcare, these are what is created for, for the people. People who educate should have the wisdom to understanding knowledge is universal, it does not own to one but to all together, sharing knowledge a high end of generosity. Those who are doctors should have the compassion for others, to actually see that who they are dealing are human lives, which they themselves possess and they should not forget they have families as well. People will question, if they do not do all this, how will they get their income? A matter for one to think and deal about.

This all happens through the act of capitalism, even bias capitalism. When the non-Malays are not given sufficient spots in universities and colleges, they will seek out private universities and colleges. This is where clever businessman comes in, mostly Chinese businesses are privatized. This is where they take the advantage to gain profits for themselves. Education and healthcare are privatized, so those who wants and expect good education and healthcare have no option but to struggle through to pay the large increasing amount of fees to those to have the benefits, and by the end of the day, it is up to that individual to see if he/she benefits from that amount. Only those who owns the sectors will gain the profits and benefits they wish and those under their wings as well share the same riches that they consumed and they are of very marginal amount of people while the rest suffers an struggles more through their lives.

To sum it up, it can be seen that the rich is getting richer while the poor is getting poorer. We must open our eyes, to see how our families are doing, how they are working hard to for our benefit. Even if we can't change it as a whole, we should realize and work with a pure heart through the blood and sweat given to us for a better living, to do our part to change ourselves each of us for the better. Socialism, social reform or whatsoever you call it, when it is the truth to your eyes, live that truth and do what is best for all and yourself as a noble individual...\m/...

Transaction...\m/...

We live life to be happy, hoping to be happy, doing things that make us feel good, and feeling great happiness and contentment. The aim of our life no matter what we want to do, is just down to one achievement which is to feel good about ourself.
      However, sadness is just a step away from happiness, and is needless to achieve sadness as it comes by so easy everytime. To feel sad is alot more easier than to be happy. In such a hectic and rapid pace of life humans live in now, which includes pressure and burden from material world and the personal problem that arises within one and their families, so much things to bother, so much things to think about, how can we not think about it when it just comes without us ever wanting it, can we push it aside and leave it be? It still comes back to us, dilemmas, emotional breakdowns, stress and NOISES all around that accumulates blocks the path to happiness that we want to feel.
      It is hard to maintain any happiness we felt, the very moment you feel happy and the next there will be something to pull you back down again, and it shrouded your happiness of a moment into a sadness that is tough to eliminate.
      The worse feeling is not feeling sad and down, but the transition of that hard earn happiness into sadness all over again. That transition period where you felt so happy and things are going right and it just throws you back down into the drain of filth and sadness. You ask yourself "Why must this happen, why must it be like this when I am already happy, WHY?". At this moment, happiness seems hard to be earned, how happy we are there are things we are not contented with.
      That transition from happiness to sadness is a horrible feeling to be felt, and there are times one will rather just be sad and down than to be so happy and to be let down the very next moment. Being happy and shits to happen again the next moment, and the cycle goes on and on, those who felt it will understand how it feels.
       Sad then be sad all the way, happy then be happy all the way, it is too idealistic to have it that way. So to say, appreciate and be grateful for those who don't and be more appreciative and grateful for those who already are to happiness that you get now and in time to come. Being truly happy is not easy to achieve. Be glad for those who are happy and never bring them down as happiness is never easy and you do not know what they been through, do not put them into that transaction-into-sadness period as you know how it is felt on your own account, especially your family...\m/...

Indifferences Of Differences Of Indifferences...\m/...

The age of individualism, individualism as defined briefly by Merriam-Webster dictionary is a doctrine that the interest of an indivdual are (or ought to be) ethically paramount. Another definition is the conception that all values, rights and duties originate in individuals. As we live in today, every one coined the term 'differences' among one another, especially in the youth of today that they strive to be different from one another. People tries to differ themselves from what is common and mainstream to their definition, in order not to be the same and to look different from others. It is oddly in contrast to what they want to be, 'being different' is becoming common and it had already become a cliche in the society of human beings. Everyone want's to be different and it makes no more difference between all those people who wants to be different from one another, in the end the result is just the same, everyone is still the same with one another with the same thought of being different yet they still look the same and they coined the term of 'difference' which also meant being 'individualistic' to them, and that is how they define themselves. Everyone is being as different as you which already makes no difference between you and the rest of the other people who wants to be different. How different can you be when you still have a little care for what other people think of you.

How good or bad are you in your difference, has the same quality of grey line as being different from others. Being different has a large grey line and it is so vague to know what is different and what is not. The most literal perception you can put is being different in the most extreme way you can be, being evil when all is being good, and being good when all is evil, yet good and evil exist another grey line within them. A vague picture to describe about it is. But certain points will describe to as close as how one can is TRULY different from one another.

Being different can simply be describe as doing things that are uncommon among the common, being and looking different among others, the tiny light among the darkness, the darkness among the light, the pig among the cows, the dead rose among the living red and so on. Some are nurtured to how they are, which makes them naturally different, some just defy the common and goes against the flow of the oncoming tides, some endure the tempest among those who take shelter from it. Certain way of being different is just not literally meant you do what others don't, if not you will be walking naked on the street while everyone wears clothes. And the example can go on and on.

For one who want's to be extremely different from others, one have to endure many criticisms from others, and to not care about what others think of you, no matter how hard and cold you are, you still have the little bit of yourself of wanting to look good (a vague statement of what is good) in front of others. To look in a way that impresses others, or to say to have people looking at you in a 'good' way. If that need still goes through within you, can should just follow part of the flow and not let it be to harsh on yourself on being different.

You still can look the same when being different, sometimes difference comes from within, how you look like is not like how you are expected, 'Do not judge a book by it's cover' quote comes in with this. You may look like the rest, but your interest differs from the common, you may look nerd (how the society define the looks of nerd) but you are actually an active figure in the heavy metal scene or you play great sports. You may look like a tough soldier but you love pink and barbie dolls. Being a metalhead while you love listening to oldies and soft tunes. Being different can be said to be unexpected from what society expects from you. To be away and out of the stereotype of what people gives you. That is how you are different.

Being different can be one who does great feats that produces changes in the world and create a history to be remembered off all ages. There are too many people in the past that place a mark on the world history and how it is today, they may look like any layman like us out there and most of them start off with a background similar to many of us, but what makes them TRULY different is their achievements and contributions they made, the pioneers to a certain matter like art, music, architecture, governance, or a revolution of culture and practices in all around the world or that changes the mindset of majority of the population in this world. This include tyrannical dictators out there, no matter the heavy casualties and impact they did, they mark themselves as being different from others. Can anyone be as capable as them in achieving such great distance in their lives? How fare are you willing to go?

Being different by creating something that no one had ever thought off. Being a pioneer to a product, work or art that no one has ever seen before. In the past, there always innovators who create what we use for daily usage and also create the very first form of music and their genres we listen to everyday, like classical and renaissance music that marks a great change in how music is written and creating a work that utilize a certain language fully and a work that challenges the mind and recreate the mind of the people. Creating an original work is something that is hard to achieve as today, many things that satisfy humans have been almost fully achieved of today, thus there is a new age ideology where it sets off to encourage humans to improve their cosmic existence. If no one could be a pioneer or an innovator to a new invention, one can recreate something that already exist in a way that no one else had ever thought off, to spark off a difference of variety in 1 particular category of matters in this world. That is another difference to be made. However, people are sometimes afraid of creating something that  no one else does before, they afraid of rejection, worse still, they are afraid to be criticise, what cou
ld get worse, their work could be considered as a blasphemy or a creation of an abomination, and what is more worse is that they could be despise and hated by society. It is alright if you do not mind being look in a bad way by others, many pioneers in the past creates many doubts within them, and look where they stand and how everything of theirs so common in help to all of us. Take the risk and challenge yourself if you must. Moreover, a challenge and risk is always inevitable.

Be bad when all is good, be good when all is bad, one of the most extreme ways to be different. To go against the tide, to kill when no others dare to. To go against the orthodox of society, to distant yourself from the expectation of society. The fight psychologically and physically against the orthodox and risk being condemned. However, there will be an impactful result out of being bad among the good, one will never know, but off such theoretically, it could recreate the bad you are into something good among the people. And what most people can think off is putting up a balance within society, good and bad can't exist without one another such as light and darkness can't exist without one another. Whichever it is, do it for a purpose, doing for being blatantly different will just make a swine out of you, but still it is something different if that is what you extremely wish to be.

Everyone is different in one way or another, but the formation of society with it's moral rule and regulation, laws and order that makes people technically the same with one another. The expectations that creates an orthodox in your beliefs and thoughts puts it in a similar way with each other. How one is raised in a land, in a way that is thought to be commonly safe is a thought that it is the best and safest way to be raised. Similarites exist and it is hard for one to be truly different if they wish to. Defy the laws, defy everything and you may achieve what you wish for. Furthermore, the thing that matters more is how much difference you are within yourself mentally and (maybe) part physically that puts you away from the common walks of life. The distance of your thoughts, the amount of wisdom in your soul, that creates an understanding and clarity that not many could see already sets you ahead from others. A difference is made within yourself and it is set for you to create a whole new world for the people. And when that time comes, things will be the same again and another one emerges to recreate or create a difference from what you left behind...

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Far side...\m/...

By experiencing both ends or sides of two contrasting matter will evetually open your eyes and broaden your understanding towards the opposite matter. Going through the north and the south pole, you could see the other sight of each of the conflicting matters clearly and you will change your mind to oppose to certain things in the side you are in.

Not everything could be done by just putting yourself in the shoes of any being or matter. Putting yourself in the opposite of that shoes and you can see more than you are not able to see, to feel frustration of the other side that you never knew. Similar to how we are as a person who do not realize the flaws but could be seen and realize by others, putting yourself in the shoes of others does not make you more understanding at times, but instead blinded by your own ego of your own, that your actions are right, denying the facts of your own.

We tend to give out similar advice of trying to put yourself in the shoes of others to know and understand how they feel, but we tend to lose sight of certain unnotice matters when we do, we have some difference in characteristics and thoughts, once we put ourselve in their shoes, we will have our own mind in control of the shoes you are in. You place your ego in it, and what you understand is only for your own understanding, and you develop your own self rationalization of your own, and the shoes becomes your own...

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A change for difference to a change for nothing...\m/...

It is just mind pissing heart wrenching to see how people can behave like they own the world, what is it there to proof? That you are stronger than every one else, that you are better thany any one. Or you must have a really bad childhood to grow up in order to proof yourself this way. If you want to be barbaric, times have change and it is constantly changing, so please be a barbarian with brains.

A friend of mine got roughen up by an indian driver on the road, a big Indian guy who shouted profanities and threaten to beat him to pulps over a small issue of cutting each others lane on the road. He kept asking "Do you know who am I" etc etc intimidatingly stating indirectly that he is some scary dude with that no one dare messess with. He tail gates my friends and give chase and block the road in front of them, and whats more interesting is that he has a family of his wife and a couple of kids in the car as well.

Another friend of mine who did just bump a little into a malay vehicle, motorbikes or cars, and there goes nothing, those malays start calling a whole bunch of people from wherever they come from as though they are already on called and prepared for this. And they have their girl friends around who even supported them through their monkey baboon acts as well. And you know what happen next, they just do not want to talk, they seem to enjoy coming around you and give you one hell of day and night...

Recently, this that involves both sides of outsider in a chinese populated area during a night market and traffics are moving really slow. This particular car graze a car and the owner of the car came out and start beating on the car's windscreen and door on the driver side who graze his car. He hit continuously so loud and shouted in cantonese to get down the car. He started to intimidate the driver and his friend on the passenger sit. They stopped to have a so-called negotiation and the so-called-seem-to-be-a-gangster guy came shouting and pushing the head of the guy who graze his car and the guy did not retaliate a bit. He starts calling on the phone and speaking in a gangsta-cantonese style about people grazing his car. What is noticeable is the 2 girls who came down with the 'gangsta' from the car, 2 skimpy clothing girls as you all know those typical looking chinese girls who wears fucking tight short shorts with see through tight looking t-shirt that calls for guys to 'look at me, im hot and fuckable' who calls for a fuck and look like those who just fucks around with any chinese guys who just wants to fucks them. One of the factors could be concluded that this 'gangsta' is just trying to show off his 'greatness' to the girls that he is powerful and strong. Girls are just proud of that. He goes on threatening and raising his voice and hording over the other guy who tries to talk well with him.

What is common in all is that it is just mere luck they are able to show such hostility because those they get involve with people who are weaker than them, or you could say those who have greater minds and character than them. One wouldn't know if one day they did that to someone who is their equal or even superior than them and that they will taste their own medicine. 

How you treat others, how you roughen up those who fell weaker to you, and how you felt so superior is just mere luck of your own. You would not care less to put yourself in that situation to know how it feels to be humiliated and being pushed down to your knees, how would you feel if your kids grows up to be push around that way. How would you feel if that victim is your family or your father. 

If you want to proof how powerful you are, come on, picking on those weaker than you does not pose a challenge, where's the fun in it. Since people are talking shits about the cops in the country, why don't you enter a police station and start picking a fight with those guys. It is hell alot more fun and challenging unless you are just afraid. You just like to create big fights out of petty issues with layman just to satisfy your own highly pathetic meaningless ego.

No matter what, chinese, malay, indians here (only based on 3 major race), they have that same type of people in it, they are all just the same, mindless, brainless imbeciles, high level of ignorance, and just enjoys pushing people down to their knees and showing prowess and being so-called gangster to those around them. What gang or groups or whatever shit, are just a group of cowards who can't stand on their own with inferior discourse. You might be surprise how different are they when they are alone or unbelonging to anything and those who belongs to a certain group or not alone at all. You are all just pathetic, people do not retaliate against you does not mean they are weaker than you. It does not mean you rule them all. You shall see your fallen days soon enough. You are just proving yourself as a low life with how you are now. Who gets offended, it is your problem to deal with it, look at your own reflections first.

Humans just take pleasure in inciting conflicts just to satisfy their subconscious insatiable desire for violence. Violence without a purpose.

When majority is going for a change of government, the fact is that, the government does not need to change, what is needed is the reformation of the people themselves. The people that needs to be changed. The heart, the mind, the soul of the people needs to seek its own reformation for the better. No matter what side wins, when the people, the humans is still the same, nothing is different...\m/...

Ignorant Wisdom...\m/...

      Children without the basis of education, the purest human form in all stages of life, with a clear conscience, a pure mind, that is never distracted by anything in the realities of the material world. The innocence of a child without any intention but just to be happy for themselves. Seems to be the most destructive power it could be used upon mankind. The lack of basic knowledge and education, the point where they listen to everything you said and learn from your actions, are the quickest to learn without a question in mind. Ironically evil acts can be done by this innocence of the soul, the use of an ignorant mind and an innocent heart as a tool to achieve one man's ambition can be one of the most highly effective weapon of mass destruction. Like the conscious of a man being trained for many years and hard enough to achieve a heart of stone, a child can be done with much ease than anything. The fear of a ghost child, as it is said to be one of the most malignant spirit in this world. Their needs of fun and play to them it is just mere child's play that devastates the life of a human being disturbed by the spirit. The child possess the mind of a human child and the purity of the heart, but having a higher form of power that mankind could not deal with. Such the same as child vampires, as one could see from the most common reference from the Twilight saga where child vampires are abominations and must be destroy due to the great hamr they poses, they do not know what they are doing and only succumb to their feelings of need, without knowing what is wrong and right thus killing many to satisfy their thirst. Child warriors or soldiers, humans are smart to smuggle children around the world who does not know what is right or wrong but only knows to play, are easily influence by these men who transform them into vicious beast. Assuming real guns as toys and killing enemies a part of their childhood games, they kill without a sense of conscious of what is right and wrong, and do what they are told and what they think is just a mere game to be played. Death to them is nothing but losing a game and walks away without a sense of remorse. Ignorance became a weapon, to create a better weapon. Looking into the eyes of a child seeing how pure they are from their looks, but those ironically and unconsciously to the outside eyes that it could kill and destroy as they like without knowing what they are doing. Ignorance, is the key factor, the way to control is to implant ignorance into humans or to make use of their ignorance that they already possessed. 

      In the end, wisdom and knowledge becomes the key saviour to these beings. Most think that with education to gain knowledge and taking steps to wisdom creates a so-called civilized society and a world of peace. With higher authority in one self, they question and doubt things around them, not to be easily deceive by what they see through their eyes. However, with great wisdom with an ambitious heart, with a heart that goes all out to achieve their aims, could create another force of destruction around them, a destruction and devastation with a mind and conscious. The conscious they chose to be despicable, of what they interpret to be for the greater good, they form their own definition of greatness and good that puts all others in suffering. Such dictators like Hitler, Mao Zedong, Ivan The Terrible, Alexander The Great and many more are people with great minds of knowledge and wisdom. That they use it for their own ambitions and cause. Creating their world they visualize through their mind, planning and designing pandemoniums along the path they strode closer to their aims. Inventing their own beliefs and successfully injecting them into the minds of others. They are focus to their dreams, and they manage in one way or another to live up to their success for a moment. How they impacted the world with their minds and actions, comes from their brain and heart with the similar size with all of mankind. But a greater possession of what they know, and their wisdom that change their view and the people they affected. Being ignorance and being well equipped with knowledge and wisdom, can both be destructive. One might conclude it is all about the human ego. It will be one word to says it all. But what can be said is how the heart and feelings react to what you have, being ignorance and full of wisdom at the same time having a heart is two things very far apart from one another. With wisdom, one can use to it to reinvent the world, in a better way or the other, being knowledgeable does not mean you are being great, but how greatness you can achieve from that. Applying those tools of wisdom into your trunk of disposal to the outside world of your cosmic mind, putting an end to an era and begin another era of your own. It is more than possible to be done.......\m/.......

Through Ashes And Dust, A Penitence Of Time Part 2...\m/...

       10, 20, 30, 40, 50, 60, 666 times and so on we tink to ourselves how much we will change. A better tomorrow, a better future, an improvement of yourself, that is how you could feel without much of a burden around your shoulder, and when things go so well your emotions make it feel like those bitter past have gone and you improve to your better bidding. Just because you are not in it anymore, does not mean you are an improvement to yourself. An imrpovement to yourself is going through the same shit or a greater shit than before and seeing how you perform and cope with it during the current moment that tells of how capable of you are today and right now in this very moment. There are past so bitter, that no matter how much sweets or sour plums you take in will not kill the bitterness that resides in your taste bud. When the past is so bitter, it forms a set of thoughts and beliefs within your mind and heart, that culminates into your feelings and thus make of yourself today, a product of your past, a lesson you may learnt too much of it, that you are being hyper sensitive to not have things being repeated or having the taste of the bitterness you once had before.
      It is not like you wanted it to happen, but the fact is within your very own self, how you are today is what you experienced and learnt from the past, it is matter of fact whether you learn it in a good way or a bad way, whichever you define it is good or bad for yourself. It is not surprising how an innocent and good being can be polluted by dirt and darkness and forms himself the villain he is today or should I say cold and darker self of him/herself today. How things can force a pure being to think and act out of bitterness from their past. Once he/she was not like how they are, it is surprising to learn that some villians have a great and pure past than they are today, but after things go awry and wrong for them, they got betrayed, hurt and pushed to the limits of themselves (humans have a limit to themselves, breaking the boudaries of it can cause great harm to oneself, like the saying goes, too much of something isn't good) and gets them out of their naive state. They see more and they hear more, being more cautious and losing trust among people. So to say naive can be good or bad in a way of how you place that term in a situation. People loses trust in others due to their past of betrayals and lies, especially by those they trust so much to be cheated in the end. People loses faith in people because of how they are treated and being mistreated in a way that they find other people are not reliable anymore. Until a day comes when they will realize not all things are like how they seem. But like I said this kind of situation makes one a little more sensitive than usual, with a situation that gives them back the same old feeling as before, that they could not trust or makes it difficult to trust. One that got thrust into the heart of darkness from the foul being of others, is something that makes it harder to endure as all live their life among the living and until the end you live among them and die among them..........

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