True pride...

      I see the people in many ways, I perceive the way of living in various ways, various solutions were up but only 1 path is to choose with their own individual pros and cons. After all this while, you are always angry at how people see in you, how people talk about you and how they perceive you. It may always seem it is intentionally to demoralize you, the words as sharp as the blade, that could pierce through anything especially your feeble heart and feelings. You are perceive to not able to give security to others, you cannot do it is what they tell you. Does not give you a chance to stand up for yourself.
      Should you take that into considerations and develop doubts within yourself? Should you be afraid to face others and do things they think you cannot do in front of others? Never ever let those words and thoughts influence the way you live, you know yourself better than anyone else but do not judge yourself, let others judge you how they want to, only use those relevant as a guide. Those judgment and words that comes to knife you down mercilessly shall be put aside to be cremated within your subconscious flame.
     Remember, you are who you are, your thoughts and beliefs is all yours, what they think of you or say of you is nothing but mere words from people who just could not think better for themselves and only see the weak point of others. You know your reason for the actions you do, you know the positivity it brings to you and those around you. Fear not the people, you are unique in your ways, your pride is yours and never was for the others. Be true to yourself and never change in order to be look upon in a certain group of people or to please people's expectations. One day, they will realize it...\m/...

Trivial as life could be, but never let it deceive the mind...

      Yesterday and yesterday, 2 yesterdays ago, what it seems to be another dull day with the usual event that occur just like any other day. He step out of his lair to prepare to go for his classes, there he met the common cat playing around at the stairs of his apartment. He stops in his track and play with the little furrrball for a moment, it started to follow him around for the moment before it began to attempt its way into his home. He got to chase it away before it could struck lightning down upon his mother who could not bare closure with felines. Who will ever expect what will happen to that cat, with it's innocent eyes and all it wants is only food, peace and happiness. Just like humans like all of us who still lives on in this world on two feet, we are but no different from animals, we feel as they feel and they feel as we feel. Just an ordinary day it seems, nothing shall befall upon you in any brink of a second. Ignorant to our own ordeal, we stand before everything without a thought.

      As night falls upon the land, the glimpse of dawn starts their early signals with a crescent of the aurora. There he arrive home safely after drinking rums, there was nothing around him but only the silence of the humans and the choir of the crickets. A chilly night where he saw the same little cat that he met in the morning, it became a social animal friend of him. A playful cat it was, with so much spirit in that little fellow, seemingly optimistic over everything. He made signals and sound to summon the cat to follow him around, the cat came around to him. It follow him across the road but it stopped halfway and lie on the ground. He turn around and saw it rolling on the ground like how all cat's feels good rubbing their back against something. He lays out his hand, and the little cat tries to grasp onto his hand as he kept taking it back to tease the little fellow. He did it again and finally the little cat manages to get a tap on his hand with it's paw. An adorable and innocent sight, like a child free of sins. He walk away to head home but yet he turns around again to call for it to follow him but it did not and kept continuing rolling on the ground. He notices a headlight shining from afar, yes it is the sound of a car. It is moving really fast. He had assumption in his mind that the car will stop as it is an apartment area where speed is not acceptable and it will slow as it comes nearer. The car did not slowed and drove on really fast and in an instant with a dash of a light speed, it ran into the little cat lying in the middle of the road. It wanted to got away but it was too slow. The car sped off being ignorant about what he has ran upon. He stood there watching everything that happen right under his nose, in front of his stained eyes. The cat just got drove upon it's head and neck and it is wretching and twitching and swirling in pain of sufferance. How could he bare his eyes upon that sight, it is already too late, nothing could be done, a certain death for it. He turns and ran back into his home, feeling the guilt and remorse of what he witness. How sad it was to see such grief on such weak petty being. Whilst the strong, dominating and unhonorable indecent beings still live with infinity gold on their hands that continue on with their exploitation of their conspiracy.

      He could save the cat if he did not stood and think and just grab the cat from the road while it is still possible or he could just signal the car to stop. It happen too fast for him to give a thought. The cat died in pain, the horrid expression when it suffers unnecessarily for the sins it never committed. Once in the morning it plays around on the stairs and he look at it but never thought that it was the last sunrise the cat will ever see. The last warmness of the sunlight it will ever experience. The last chills in the night it will ever feel. In that moment when he sees the cat, being as active and cheerful as it always has been, never has he thought it shall in another couple minutes, its life will end under the tyres of a indecent maniacal driver. Once he witness a kitten fall to its death from above right onto the ground few inches from his foot and now he witness a cat being run over by a car. He witness death on a birthday of his friend. 

      Life is unpredictable in many ways, we do not know what will happen or when our time will come. It can be any moment from now, like in a few minutes to 30 second after reading this post. Such things just brings realization that in one day the person you love will have the possibility to be gone from your for good without you knowing it and you wouldn't have a chance to even say farewell. Start to think of what you have done in your life, how much have you contributed for your love ones, how much happiness have you given to people around you, what do you have now and appreciate every single bit of it. Know your moments well and appreciate the "now" moments than thinking too much of future cravings and desire. Use your time wisely with whatever you got for the greater good for yourself or others. Life shall not be led with regrets or remorse, but with righteous glory and purity from within. Whatever that is going to happen, humans shall fall with grace. We all live in a dangerous world now and what we can't see is lurking among us that will grasp the final breath at any period. Watching your backs will not work and being overly cautious with high tech defensive and offensive systems will never work as well.

P.S:  Amitabha...\m/...

The pain that never was...

      Humans are such sad creature to start off with. A material being with an empty soul, to be filled with despair and sorrow as time brings them along a journey they never knew. Some turn their sorrow into evil, some use it for the greater good of themselves. Humans are never perfect in many ways or any ways, they are defenseless and weak no matter how strong they thought they are. Nothing  more than just a pitiful being who seeks empathy from greater power that none of us can see. Desperateness drives them over the boundaries, sadness drives them off the roof, depression leaves them in an unstable trance. But what can they decipher? It is all made out from their own actions and emotions, nothing more than just weaklings who wants to oppress others and seek pleasure and benefits for themselves. All live in their own personal delusions but all with the same cause, the bad thinks they are good and the good thinks they are better, and the better thinks they are the best, the best thinks they are God. Lust and desire, pride and arrogance, high and mighty is what brings the fall upon mankind, the decline of a civilization that was never civilized. Civilized was only claim by themselves while they oppress the barbarics and unacceptable in their point of view, when they claim people must accept people which is just words but never action. Humans speak more than action, speech differs from the heart, and the heart differs from the words spoken. Empty feeble words, broken promises, that is what they do best. Degrading people, hurting each other in any ways, neglecting the truly weaker ones, and thirst for material possession. The traits of the most complex living organism in this planet Earth. Humans live in a state of doubt and paranoia, timid creatures whom feared the scythe of the reaper. As time progresses on to a new age, newer technologies pushes humans to every limits yet complicating life further into a state of mental decline and physical abnormalities. What values does it portray? What benefit does it give to the inner core of humans other than just material pleasures and comforts? No one speaks of that anymore, even the act of altruism this days have an agenda behind every moves of it. Humans are just sneakier, cunning and nastier as the world progresses. Will a new messiah rise for the savior of the souls, or had the truth been concealed once again that in fact the Anti-Christ is originally the true messiah who will save every bit of humans?

The world knows you no longer... In fact, it never once knew you...

      Everyone is mortal, and mortals are humans, and humans ain't perfect in every single way. Not even the Gods. You can tell your lover how perfect they are but you know best how things work and that they are not perfect in every way. The fact is, nothing is perfect, the only closest is near perfection. Humans have many sights and perspective towards whatever they experience, there is no right and wrong but only ethical and unethical, moral and immoral values. Do not force them to believe in what you believe but only let them believe through their own will. If people do not listen, do not force them to listen, let them listen in their own will. If they do not heed to advise, do not force but let them accept with their own will. Through free-will only people could live on with ease and happiness without being tormented and tortured to follow the leader who is never was.
      A thought runs through his mind, that he could no longer continue living for others sake, he will lost his own nature if it is going to be that way for a long period to come. Losing the freedom to give him a chance to embark on something most people do not believe in, confiding in the feelings of others makes him cold towards his ownself, blaming himself for everything that had, has and soon to happen. Being there for people when he could but in the end he receive the cold shoulder and the bitter looks and sarcasm. Being look down upon, strip him off his confidence, as though he do not own the feeling of an ordinary human being. There he goes down on his knee for the people, was it worth it? What benefit you gain from them? It is time to move on, people come and go in life, throw the old and pick the new, start a fresh and rise up to a new level. How much longer can he hold on to it, not any longer he hope, burn the rope and give way to a fallen bridge, maintain the distant, walk away and never look back.
      Being around with people of his choice is the same choice being made by everyone. They do not want to be with people they do not want to be, that is norm from the beginning of time where homosapiens begin stomping the soil of earth. If people do not like a certain kind of humans, they can't expect everyone to think like them. He has his own choice, and his choice is made is solely in his hands of his own fate. Say the words he could not see, like in hell he cares. Draw the picture he could not see, like in dungholes he cares. It does not change who he is whichever side he is with, but only his silent thought remains constant of his own conscious.
      As silent as he could be in his recent days, an invisible barrier caught in between. He doubts the humans, he doubts those he use to trust. It does not seem like what he expected anymore. People change and yes that is how it works, humans are progressive creatures created to progress from one step to the other. The progression made either to be on the left or the right path, whichever it is chosen, nothing much he could do but to just sit, wait and watch. Still the eyes that he could see that shall remains for the rest of his life with eternity and beyond is the eyes of his true brother...\m/...

Rust in Pieces...

      When two worlds in a universe got torn between themselves. Living in contrast with each other, different beliefs and thoughts. What comes to you? A collision that cause a mass space eruption. He is torn between 2 beliefs just like a split personality, a reflection that does not reflect at all, like a devil on the left and an angel on the right. A desire to commit evil and sin, an urge to kill, to hurt people around him is what he intends for from deep within the core of his inner heart when he felt the rage building up upon him. When darkness just shed its skin on him, driven him to temptation to commit desecration on anyone he seems he should place his rage on. A sign of danger to those close to him, for those humans he shall deceive and deceit. Without any compassion and rational thought he just wants to commit evil as it satisfy his sadistic-like intentions.
      A tormented soul he possessed, that lay's unrest. Now he seeks for peace for his soul, to wash away the malevolent stains, he crave himself for spiritual enlightenment, to maintain a balance in soul. He needs to be saved for once not by anyone but by the words of wisdom and philosophy he shall engraved into his mind. A lesson from the unforgotten legend, start the path of a spiritual journey that shall lead him to a new light of darkness. The good darkness shall rise and no, he shall not rot in pieces, but rest through realization and enlightenment.

Denial fiend...out from the dark...

      After all this while, he realize what he truly wants, and whom he truly cares and adores. A period of denial and self-fulfilling prophecy that prophecized something which is not meant to be, something that never existed and never will. A delusion he kept within himself, disperse of into the crimson moonlight. Affirm of the his feelings, what more he do but just could not stop laying his eyes on the one who is far and yet so very far. A stint of absence of the presence which never fades at all, comes the clarion call into his weak mind, body and soul. The eyes met and theres no doubt from what his eyes absorb, the returning essence of what he felt centuries ago. Now come back forth, into his life where it leads him to another path, a path with eternal spots of lights, glimpse of hope and confident spreads itself around the core of his black heart. Leave the past behind, just another lesson to endure. Ahead comes marching an army of newly created hope. He who do not want to leave behind, he who will be there even how far he must be, just a watchful eyes is enough to give him the grace that had long forsaken him. A new beginning to an abrupt end, slowly he shall lift himself from the decaying land, he must not be stopped...

Torn between two...

      When you think you are in love with someone else but actually it is not like how you think or feel. A self-fulfilling prophecy of your own that makes the call of your thoughts and choice. He saw her smile one day and thought how sweet her smile can be, twice she look and smile, and next is thrice the final one she made to him. That twitch comes back again towards her. Yet, a twitch is felt towards the another one he believes he could not grasp hold on, a one that a chance deem impossible to catch.

      What is it that he ask for, whom is the one he could consider his other half? A question sought to be answer one day, one moment, but never now. He has lose all the confidence and might within his inner self, something that a serum cannot put a cure to it. One of the both, whom shall that be? When he thought everything was just a simple crush and that everything is over does not create a logical picture to what he is feeling now. It does not make sense, why must she come back again to his sight. 3 weeks more a start of a new beginning. The story shall be unfold by then. Caught between two emotions. Torn between his very own heart. A mind to spare for this?...\m/...

The left hand path of a right hand mind...

      A subconscious voice speaks to him from beyond, the voice where everyone has for their own. The voice he thought he never had but subconsciously speaking to him in ways no one can decipher.

      The right side said to him: You live your life for others, be selfless and do good for those around you. An act of altruism a day keeps the bitterness away. Do not bother of what others say about you, as long you know exactly what you are doing and you are walking to the right direction. Be positive over the your failure, as a lesson to your next move and steps. Do not have bad thoughts on others, be equal to all no matter who they are. Everyone deserves chances in their life to move on, so do not judge them by just their flaws. Be sincere and friendly to those people around you, do not lie to them and yourself. Do not deceive people or prepare to be deceive. Honesty is the best policy.Do not impose upon others what you do not desire upon yourself. Be moderate, show empathy and mercy to those people who always steps in your way. Give fair judgment and justification to everyone. Respect your elders, respect your friends and your teachers. Remember the good deeds people do for you and those who help you in your way. Repay them back what is necessary. Learn to trust people.

      The left side said to him: You cannot live for others, you can only live for yourself if you want to succeed. Be more selfish than selfless four you to gain absolute power for yourself and not splitting it unnecessarily with others. Do not trust people or never to trust anyone easily even if you know them for a decade or so, people change and they can betray you anytime. Destroy those who comes in your way until the extend of taking lives if you have to. Show no mercy in your actions, only pure aggression and brutality. Soft spots only leads to failure and people taking advantage of you. Dictate the people, be a leader of your own and show them what you are made off. Wipe their blood on your blade if they ever to defy you. Use their help to your advantage, accept every offer and opportunity they give, it is your chance to make use of those in your side. They can be of great tool to you for your success. Fight only for yourself, fighting only four yourself brings out the best in you. Stick to your prinsips. and never let anyone correct your opinions and beliefs. Be true only to yourself and annihilate those who tries to convert you into something you do not desire. Sacrifice what you need for your own, you are your world, and the world is you. Inspire yourself from the traits of the AntiChrist, the new messiah of the new world order.